Hello Bloggers,
So here I am again, trying to blog, very unsuccessfully I might add. I just am not sure how to do this. I don't know who sees this, if anyone, or how to accomplish this small feat. I guess I will just continue this as more of a diary or journal for myself than anything. I wish I would get a notification or comment from someone just once so that I can see if this is actually going anywhere.
Any way, here I go.
So I'm alone in my room, as usual, watching TV but mostly just waiting to see if I can fall asleep and take a nap. It is about 4:30 pm and it's nap time. I am just soooo bored because there is nothing good on TV and I am getting tired of seeing my usual shows because, lets face it, no matter how good Criminal Minds is, you can see the same rerun but so many times before you start acting out the scenes yourself! Awghhh!
My family is around somewhere going about their business. My daughter is in her room watching TV or maybe playing her Simms game, my youngest is doing HW and waiting to watch TV himself afterwards, my oldest is playing some stupid video game in his room and my husband is grocery shopping so he can start dinner.
Meanwhile, in NancyLand, I focus on my tingling hands and legs, the swelling that continues to crawl over my feet, the numbness and pain throughout my limbs, and the complete weakness overtaking me little by little each day. I feel like I'm wasting away while I watch the world pass me by. I don't get out much because it' too much effort and hassle to shower and dress myself so I opt to stay in. So I just sit here waiting for when the time comes to take my next bunch of medication.
Never anything exciting to report and that is why I don't come in here that often. Even to me, my life is boring and not worth a second look.
But, even in the midst of all this, I speak with God often. I have to. If I didn't I would go insane. He is the Lord of my salvation. He is my fortress and my shield. Without Him, I would not be able to accomplish even the smallest of tasks. I may gripe and complain about my circumstances but I know that He is with me and that I am following in His perfect will for me, what ever that may be. I trust Him completely and absolutely. He will never ever let me down or forsake me. I love Him and I know He loves me. I may not understand this but He knows what He is doing and that;s good enough for me.
See you next time, hopefully soon.
God bless you.
